If Not Now, Then When?

Thank you Mitch for posting to the blog. I have been playing the ostrich game which means I have not been doing well with my eating and exercise and don't want to admit it. Which then in my mind means I am not perfect. There, I said it. I admit it. I am NOT perfect. The fear and then relief I feel saying that is incredible. I am not perfect! No one expects me to be, but me....

There was something on my mind today as I took a walk during lunch. I didn't really know what was on my mind, but wow did I have an epiphany! I was thinking about Michele and her post. How happy I was to see that she was truthful about her wanting to quit. How glad I was that she reconsidered. How could I possibly help her stay focused?

The question I was going to pose was; If not now, then when will you be ready? Then it was like someone hit me upside the head....... The same goes for me!

1. If not now, then WHEN will I be ready? I refuse to start another diet on a Monday.
2. If not now, then WHEN will there magically be enough time for me to exercise? Never.
3. If not now, then WHEN will I not struggle with my food choices? Never.
4. Most important: If not now, then WHEN will I keep my promise to myself..... Starts NOW!

What an emotional lunch hour.

My committment:

1. Post my food and exercise journals daily.
2. Not break my promise to myself.
3. Plan my meals and schedule my exercise.

So here goes it, definitely not paleo/zone...
Breakfast:
-Starbuck tall double shot whole milk mocha
-1 ham/ciabatta bread/egg sandwich

Lunch - I was starving and craving weird food.
-Sweet and sour chix and fried rice... Ate it all.. felt horrible.....

Dinner - Still really hungry..
- Turkey meatloaf (Mitch made)
- Green beans.